The tenderness that's herWith every word written, with every word spokenI try my best to express myself, without it being brokenFor what I feel is deep in my heart, is love that I want to be showingEvery day it develops, every day I feel more lovingIs the tenderness of passion, which I’ve never felt beforeA feeling that I got from a girl who I truly adoreBeautiful as a rose and gentle as a peaceful doveMy heart gets filled with warmth, a feeling I describe as loveShe’s the most beautiful girl I’ve seen, that’s as simple as I can beSo very cute and filled with joy, she’s the only girl who I want to seeHer adorable smile that always cheers me up, she’s the only one I needShe’s everything I ever wanted, I thank god that he gave her to me
UnpoeticI wish someone couldsee meSee through theliesThe excuses I makeup so I don't haveto bother anybodyI wish for respectFor someone wholistensWho doesn't do somethingthat hurts meInsults meRespect.A fighter.Someone who fights formeWhen the depression comesand drags me awaySomeone who willpull me backand hold onto meNever letting goI'm screaming.and everyone has theirback to meThey walk awayWhy?What is so wrong withme thatABSOLUTELY NOBODYloves me?Or can love me?I'm screaming at the topof my lungs, becauseI'm drowningGasping for air in awhirlpoolCrying out for help,and no ship in sight.
Dancing On the CloudsDancing on the cloudsI’ve always yearned to tryLeave my world behindSeek sanctuary in the skyTo be one with the birds,Forever free to roamTo move like the wind,Have but the heavens for my homeTo embrace the moon,Oh, what I wouldn’t giveAmid the flaming stars,That is where I long to liveHow can you catch a cloud?In spite of your beseech,The dreams you dream the mostAre the ones farthest from your reach
I've Been ThereWhen I tell you I'm different,I don't want your pity.When I tell you my feelings,I promise, it won't be pretty.But you're surprised anyway,or you don't even care.Yes, I know.Believe me, I've been there.When I tell you I'm differentplease, at least, react.I know you don't want to be friends anymore,your face only shows fact.When I tell you my feelings.It's okay,I won't fall apart.I'm just sending out emotion,straight from my heart.So you're still in shock,or you don't even care.Please don't go away,believe me,I've been there
My LostI closed my eyes and gripped it tighterMy knees began to tremble so much that I had to lean against the counterThe light I held was now completely goneWhy bother continue when you'd lost your hope?Maybe I'm shallow or stupid as others sayBut the feeling of being broken is never an easy thingWhether I knew the fates had played it this wayOr that the void of cold emptiness had finally eaten meShould that even help how it feels right now?Its cold, it drips, and is now streaked wetWhy do tears fall when it is all over?Stop it, stop crying!Dripping tears would only fall to the harsh ground and become nothingDo you regret the choice you've finally made?Lost and empty, cold and darkBroken and useless
Stupid enoughChoose what you have to, rely on your handSee what no one understandsFall and crawl, may my memories haunt meBecause I've lost what I had, never would return.
AloneDo you know what it means to be alone? Had no friends, no social life, and no normal family? Deidara knew. It hurts... actually it hurts like hell. Like every time you thought about it - feel sharp pain in the chest. Anger, sadness, envy is your constant emotions and you can't get away from them. Other people do not see it, because of the mask. A shell of happy teenager, pretending that everything is all right, but it is not. Then nobody saw him, smile disappear from face and he became nobody again. Sometimes he felt like a doll beautiful outside, empty inside and so easy to break.Deidara sighed looking into the ceiling of his dark room. Today was one of his misery days, one of the bad ones, when he can't pretend anymore. He had them time to time. Then his emotions burst out and all defenses shatter. He just had to let it out and then everything will be back to normal. Deidara sat on the bed and turn on music. That helped him to relax heavy sound of guitars, d
The Waxen LullabyFarewell to leaning fortress grey,Your bower walls are winding trees.Crowns aflame with breaking day,A-tremble in the breeze.Send your wandrings to the sky,Set your mantle shining bright,Outrun the blood-red eventideOutshine the stars at night.Let your weary steps be swayedFar from your hearth, far from your home.Life and longing now forbadeWhen to the witchs realm you roam.Be wary, fear the cursed gazeWeathered face and eye of stone,Embers in the ashes blaze,And you are waxen to the bone.No weary falling of the limb!No sight to see the sunrise dim!No touch to feel the fallen snow!Afar afar afar you go!And you are waxen to the bone.
DeceptionThe dawn has brought with it insecurityAn empty aching feeling that I am failingFailing them, failing youDestined to fail at all I do.Disposable,Unstable,My sanity feastingAt a cold sterile table.The mirror lies when it sees meReflecting what the world can see.Dig deeper...You will find I'm cheaper.Scarred and disfiguredDisgraced by my own hands,Disgusting deedsPride and worth ripped in shreds.Will you want meWhen you really know me?May 9, 2011
Hold Meyou're all i need right now.the only one i want to talk tothe only one i NEED to talk to.if you could, would you hold me?would you kiss me?would you love me?would you keep me safe?would you never let me go?would you heal me, no matter how long it takes?speaking to the atmosphere.no one's hereand i fall into myself.tears fall fasterwith each unstable breath.i need you....be near me....and my broken heart
The End ofthe BeginningPhantom shadows that chase my dreams,Beyond ghostly halls of empty screams,A voice that whispers just as before,So quiet at first now shrieks once more.Unholy the sound; as angels die,As the storm proceeds to split the sky,